Confessions........

Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. I learned something really wonderful from the wife of the preacher at a church that I used to go to. She taught me how to confess the Word over my life and she had told me a story about how her husband was seriuosly addicted to cocaine and she just kept putting his name in Psalms 1:1-3 like this,
1 Blessed is Wendy who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers.
2 But Wendy's delight is in the law of the LORD, and on His law she meditates day and night.
3 She is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever Wendy does prospers.

Until eventually he cleaned up and became the pastor.


You can actually buy bibles now that are individualized with your own name placed in many of the scripture promises. Because we are in Christ, those promises belong to us too. They are our heritage and our inheritance. When I rededicated my life to God in 11/01/2001, that was one of the first things that God showed me. He showed me how that deep inside of me deeper than just relating to or empathizing with people in scripture who went through things, we were apart of each other. Paul even commented in many of his passages that he knew that he was writing for a people far off and also in the future. He knew he was writing for us.

Such as knowing that in our genetic line spriritually we are connected to the Children of Israel, to Peter, or to David and so on...God says that the word is for our correction and our reproof. We are supposed to read the word as what it is: A love letter. Every single page is written in love to guide, teach and admonish you in love. So it goes without saying that it makes sense for you to put your own name in the promises.

So here are a few confessions that I make daily and maybe you could sit down and think of some things that you wish to come to pass in your own life and find the scripture for it and make that confession in faith everyday believing that God definately grants requests according to His word and that His word does not go forth and come back void.

My confessions here will not have the scripture reference after them, but you can look them up on http://www.biblegateway.com/ (my fave bible site and most of my verses will come from the amplified edition whichis also my favorite) to get their ref. in many different bibles.

Some are put in my words as this is the way that I started and yet others I have dug out especially for some of my friends who visit my blog, these are scriptures that will be helpful in your circumstances, when you read them you will know which ones are yours, hide them in your heart and confess them as yous.

The way that I cam across my own confessions was by just sitting down with God and really being sensitive to the Holy Spirit guiding me concerning areas of weakness or areas that I just needed to reinforce or be reminded of by the renewing of my mind. I was also looking at what I personally needed in my life to call for in faith.

Beginning with this: You have taught me how that by the Word of Your lips I can keep me from the destroyers paths, You hold up my giong in your paths and my foot does not slip. (You can keep you! That's exactly what the word says that by your own words from God's word, you can keep yourself from the destroyers path) This is maturing in the Word. This is not milk.

• I am the righteousness of God in Christ
• I am the head and not the tail
• I am above and not beneath
• I will lend and not have to borrow
• God gives me bread to eat and seed to sow and whenever I see someone with a need I have plenty to meet their needs
• I function in all the gifts of the Spirit
• God loves me and is living in me
• I have gifts and abilities
• I have favor everywhere that I go, everything that I do and with every person that I meet.
• They seek me out to bless me and they speak blessings to me and about me, even people that I don't know say that I am blessed and highly favored of the Lord and they are drawn to God by His work in my life
• I excel at everything that I do, because I have the mind of Christ and the creativity of the Holy Spirit
• Blessings are chasing me down and running me over!
• I am complete in Jesus who is in me
• God has great plans for my life and He won't quit until He completes them, He does not give up.
• My gifts make room for me and bring me before great men
• I find favor in the eyes of those in authority over me
• The lord puts a watch over my mouth in case I sin with my words.
• I have a thankful heart
• I have Godly confidence and self esteem and I do not think more highly of myself than I ought to in the flesh.
• I keep the words of the covenant and I do them and I prosper in all that I do
• The Lord has made me plentious in goods, in the fruit of my body, in the fruit of my cattle, and in the fruit of my ground and in the land which the Lord swore unto my fathers to give me.
• I fear the Lord and I walk in His ways the labor of my hands are blessed it is well with me.
• Mountain of debt, BE THOU REMOVED! In Jesus name!
• Riches and honour are with me, yes durable riches and righteousness.
• The wisdom of the Lord dwells in me with prudence
• The Holy Spirit helps me find out knowledge of witty inventions prov 8:12
• The wisdom of the Lord within me causes me to inherit substance and fills my treasure
• The blessing of the Lord makes me rich and adds no sorrow with it
• I keep the charge of the Lord, to walk in His ways to keep His statutes and His fcommandments and judgemtns and His testimonies as it is written in the Law of Moses 6that I will prosper in all that I do and wherever I turn myself. Man is not my source, God is my source.
• (People will try to talk you out of your dreams but they are not the source and your destiny is not tied to them in any way)
• I am mentally sharp in my mind and in my memory
• I react correctly to every situation that I am faced with
• I am not passive about anything, but I deal with all things in my life immediately
• I am an encourager and others are strengthened in their lives and in their faith by me
• I amambitious, energetic, perevering and focused and I face every area of my life with maturity
• God is on my side, I will not live in fear
• one of the most wonderful verses in the Bible and I will be doing a post on this soon, The enemy shall not exact from me or do me violence or outwit me, nor shall the wicked afflict and humble me.Psalms 89:22
• The lord is the lifter of my head
• I hear God's voice clearly at all times
• God's face shines upon me His beloved
• The Lord lets me know Him, He even visits me in the night seasons
• You show me marvelous lovingkindness, you save me with your right hand becuasde I put my trust in you from those who rise up against me.
• I am the apple of your eye.
• You hide me under the shadow of your wings. (oh what peace)
• You have subdued under me, those that rise up against me
• You lift me up above those that rise up against me, you deliver me from the violent man
• I am not overly concerned with people who are braggin on me and I am not concerned with megative things that people say, my confidence is in God and what He says about me.
• I meditate on God's word and God reveals His will to ,me andI hide it in my heart. I hide his word in my heart, I do not confer with man.
• I am not afraid of the faces of man and I am not intimidated by anyone
• God opens doors that no man can shut and shuts doors that no man can open
• I always know what to say and when to say it, my words are in due season
• I know when to speak and when to be silent
• I never tear down a brother or a sister with the words of my mouth, I only edify and build up

I hope that these were helpful to you and I hope that you will be encouraged to listen for yourself and find some areas that you can strengthen in your own life. Bible gateway is an awesom resource for this. I enjoyed speaking some of these things over my life and then being able to go back and check them off (OCD) as they came to pass. You can see how faithful God truly is.. Loving, WEndy>;<

The storm is over....

How to overcome problems in th midst of a storm....

Lock into something! Decide, "I am not going to have less than God wants me to have, I am not going to lose my walk with God for anything."
I am not going to lose my walk with God for friendships with people who won't be there when I need them to be anyway. Whatever you loose...friends, churches, family, jobs etc... God will restore. There will be time in between when we invest and the investment pays dividends.
He'll give you more than what you give up double actually.

Isaiah 61:7Instead of your [former] shame you shall have a twofold recompense; instead of dishonor and reproach [your people] shall rejoice in their portion. Therefore in their land they shall possess double [what they had forfeited]; everlasting joy shall be theirs.
Zechariah 9:12Return to the stronghold [of security and prosperity], you prisoners of hope; even today do I declare that I will restore double your former prosperity to you.

YOU are built for challenge. God is preparing you for a new level by this storm. Your eyesight is sharp, you've learned how to fly! He'll give you new friends and new opportunities that are best for you. "Apart from me you can do nothing" Our lives our way are/were nothing. This is the only life worth having.
Exodus 19:4You have seen what I did to the Egyptians, and how I bore you on eagles' wings and brought you to Myself.
2 Samuel 1:23Saul and Jonathan, beloved and lovely! In their lives and in their deaths they were not divided. They were swifter than eagles, they were stronger than lions.


A wide door of opportunity opened for Paul in the new testament, but with it many adversaries. Like Joyce Meyer says,
"New level new devil."

1 Corinthians 16:9 For a wide door of opportunity for effectual [service] has opened to me [there, a great and promising one], and [there are] many adversaries.

Attacks will happen that will make you yell at yourself, "What IS my problem!"
But hold tight to God in your storm. Do all you can and all you know to do right and hold on!!!!
You are not your own. You weren't created for yourself. You are meant for others.

You think God won't test you to see if you want what you say you want?
You think He won't test your faith to see if you've got what it takes to go the distance with God?
WE should mount up with wings as eagles.
Do you still really want to be used by God?
God's looking for a new level of commitment from you. You are built for adversity!
That is when the best comes out of you!
We're all after a haul!
A haul of blessings just like when Jesus told them to let their nets back down (which is the end of the story that I have been telling) Remember this is when Simon Peter said, "I go a fishing," and the other deciples said, "we'll go too!" Nobody knew what to do except to go back to their old ways, Especially, Simon Peter, he probably thought that since he had denied the Lord three times that it was all over for him, that he couldn't be used by God anymore, he had failed.
Simon Peter went back to his old life wide open too, he was fishing so hard that he was naked!

John 21:7 Then the disciple whom Jesus loved said to Peter, It is the Lord! Simon Peter, hearing him say that it was the Lord, put (girded) on his upper garment (his fisherman's coat, his outer tunic)--for he was stripped [for work]--and sprang into the sea.
(this is a little different from my bible, I'm reading the New King James Evangelical Study Bible but I also use the Amplified)


...with only a fisherman's jacket on! but when he saw the Lord on the shore after the crucifiction, He jumped in the water naked and swam back after Jesus had told them to throw their nets in one more time and they caught a haul, isn't that the kind of blessing that we all want?
We're all looking for a haul!!!
What was Jesus doingat that time? Cooking them breakfast.
WE are at a new level! Maybe Peter's jumping in the water was metaphoric for diving in after the Lord and just getting away from that boat.His excitement at the realization that the Lord hadn't left him after he had denied him three times and that the plan was still on!
We don't need the boat anymore. Let go!!! That life is over....."Feed my sheep."

On the ground of your word Jesus, I will do what you have called me to do. I know that the plan has not changed.
Make the commitment for something that is harder than you thought and takes longer than you thought it would and costs more than you thought it would cost.
Set your mind for a quality decision about what youre going to do! We will press through with God. This is so worth it. The investment is so great, your life...but the payoff....immeasureable!
You will do all that He wants you to do and you will have all that He wants you to have. He will never leave.

He is risen!!!!!
Wendy

Storms....

Have I already written about storms???

Storms are one of my favorite topics to teach and to talk about.
I am never able to look over the storms of my life without being taken back to the day that Jesus and the deciples were in the boat.

I always love the amplified version
Matthew 8:23 And after He got into the boat, His disciples followed Him.
24And [l]suddenly, behold, there arose a violent storm on the sea, so that the boat was being covered up by the waves; but He was sleeping.
25And they went and awakened Him, saying, Lord, rescue and preserve us! We are perishing!
26And He said to them, Why are you timid and afraid, O you of little faith? Then He got up and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great and wonderful calm (a perfect peaceableness).
27And the men were stunned with bewildered wonder and marveled, saying, What kind of Man is this, that even the winds and the sea obey Him!

It seems that of late I have been being taught many lessons from this situation including being given revelation on storms, faith, that boat or what I call the "B-Plan" or our security blanket, trust, Satan's plan for destruction and the fact that God is in control, He has not lost control, He will not lose control, no matter what the circumstances look like.

I was actually being taught these things by the Lord and happened around the same time to have heard a sermon by TD Jakes that was on the same topic, there are no coincidences. The name of the sermon was, "this is your last day on the boat ARISE!"

Listen to this!....Satan wishes to sift you
Luke 22:31Simon, Simon (Peter), listen! Satan has asked excessively that [all of] you be given up to him [out of the power and keeping of God], that he might sift [all of] you like grain...

Your enemy is not one that does not know you. He has lived long enough to have met many like you. You are an individual and unique, but he knows YOUR weaknesses and the areas in which to tempt you specifically.

There's Hope....

32 But I have prayed especially for you [Peter], that your [own] faith may not fail; and when you yourself have turned again, strengthen and establish your brethren.

I love that Jesus says, "again" which says to me that first of all He knows that we don't get it right the first time or sometimes, the second or third or fourth time, but He says not "if" you turn again, but "WHEN" you turn again. When, When, When...! We will turn again..

The time is come that we do away with the B-plan. Time to release that safety net or the security blanket. In the boat is where we were before, but now stepping out on faith. Once even blessed in the boat, but now to the matter of walking on water!
Metaphorically this explains our journey with God. There's so much faith and believing and trust. We will, "walk where our feet have not tread before".
The new plan...To let go of the boat and not look back, not taking our eyes off of Him.
I also think about what Jesus told Simon (Peter), that he would deny Him three times but Peter denied that this would even happen. Even with the best intentions, and wanting so badly to live blamelessly and perfectly before Him never ever turning back, but the truth is if this were possible there would be no need for sanctification (the school of the Holy Spirit) and there would be no need for a savior. He knew that we couldn't live like this apart from Him.

We're harder on ourselves than He is on us. He has more patience with you than you have for yourself. That's why there is so much emphasis on getting ourselves out of the way. His ways are not our ways and His thoughts are not our thoughts He is gentler than even you are. He is perfect love, that's something that we can't and don't understand. Stop hating yourself and torturing yourself for not being perfect.

"When things got really bad and I mean really really bad", they had led Jesus away and the end was beginning. The beginning of the torture and abuse was beginning at this time and Peter had actuallly denied Him three times like Jesus said that he would, on the last time Jesus looked at him.

61 And the Lord turned and looked at Peter. And Peter recalled the Lord's words, how He had told him, Before the cock crows today, you will deny Me thrice.
62And he went out and wept bitterly [that is, with painfully moving grief].

Jesus looked at him. I have a friend, Roger, who tells me that at this time when the Lord looked at Peter he can just imagine the love in his eyes. He knew how much Peter would hurt. We serve a Lord who understands us. He knows us better than the enemy and makes provisions and grace enough for our needs. He knows that you won't get it right everytime and some of the times He's going to allow you to go through a storm, so that you can see for yourself your weaknesses that the enemy would come after. He also allows you to see them so that you know that this is what God is coming after in your life.

In my own recent storm, I have seen my weaknesses, I know what needs to be surrendered, I know where the enemy would work on me and I know where God is working.
I don't have to be afraid that I'll mess up beyond the point of recovery, He is in control. He has allowed the storm for the reason of working in my life and helping me to see. Many times people pray to be delivered from painful situations or difficult circumstances, I used to. That's one area that I know that I've matured in and I even get excited at the opportunity to learn more how to trust and rely on Him and excited to see what we're going to work on in my life. He is so interested in everything that concerns us.
There is no time in which we are too far gone. There is no time that it is too much.
He loves us.

Back to my story.....When things got so bad, just like in our lives when things get so bad and we feel like we're being sifted as grain and everything is stirring and swirling like a storm and we feel helpless to be able to make any changes oftentimes, we do what Peter did......John 21:3Simon Peter said to them, I am going fishing! They said to him, And we are coming with you! So they went out and got into the boat, and throughout that night they caught nothing.

We say..I go a fishing. We go back to those things that we're comfortable with in our old life. Our old reliefs our old skills or things that give us relief from the storm when things get too tough. What are those things for you? As TD Jakes put it, "How do you spell relief".

So in conclusion, I don't know if there's a major point that I'm trying to get across other than it's not too far gone. It's not beyond Him, it isn't even outside of Him. He is in control. He is the head of all principalities both in heaven and in earth and let Him work. Ask Him to show you what you need to see in your storm, ask him to teach you what you need to learn to mature and grow.

Until next time.....let go of the boat.


Happy Easter! He is Risen!! Wendy





Psalm 78:26He let forth the east wind to blow in the heavens, and by His power He guided the south wind.
Ephesians 3:10[The purpose is] that through the church the complicated, many-sided wisdom of God in all its infinite variety and innumerable aspects might now be made known to the angelic rulers and authorities (principalities and powers) in the heavenly sphere.

1 Corinthians 15:33 Do not be so deceived and misled! Evil companionships (communion, associations) corrupt and deprave good manners and morals and character.

I didn't know...

I didn't have any idea what I was going to write about this time because, I wasn't sure if I was really going to be able to share the details of the things that I've been going through lately and the truth is I'm not able to and the DETAILS really aren't what's important anyways. What is important is the lesson.

I see this life like a workbook full of chapters and God works a little backwards to me by testing first then teaching and not the other way around. It's a wonderful way to learn because it also teaches you to accept that you're going to mess up. If you didn't what really is the point in grace?

His grace is enough It's plenty for whatever you gotta do or whatever your learning style, you are no suprise to Him. People get into the big messes when the test is flunked over and over on purpose or even accepting a zero on the thing without trying to recieve instruction. Be open and let Him work in your life and according to your life specifically. He already loves who you are. Reminds me of the children of Israel and how they kept going around and around a mountain 40 years which really was only an 11 day journey. (Revelation: we are the children of Israel). His grace is sufficient.

As for my personal thing, I realized a long time ago that for some people God lets them have lots of friends to work things out with and to talk to about life's little events. Some people have sponsors or family members or therapists that they get to talk to. I just remember asking God to give me somebody, anybody to bounce things off of like that, but they never came. Actually in retrospect, maybe they did come but it seemed that for some reason or another they'd be gone and I'd just be left still by myself. I never was a loner. I threw the biggest parties and was always surrounded by people throughout my life. It took me quite a long time to learn to adjust to being alone to realize that even though it was breaking my heart, He had something important to teach me.

Looking back, I swear, I'd go through it again for the lesson that I got out of it. I wasn't very good at choosing people for my own life. I believe that He wanted to be my sponsor, counselor, therapist, family member, friend, Daddy. I believe that He wanted to teach me to go to Him with my issues. He taught me to call him like a sponsor or friend daily with every little thing. He loved on me like the father I never had. He taught me love that most other people grew up knowing but I actually had to learn how to love and be loved, the right way.
Now, He is the lifter of mine head. "I'm still learning Father to trust you, and I'll keep coming to You."

I realize that I have a history of completely choosing all of the wrong people for myself, so only now do I see the favor that He was doing me. It was just really a quiet and lonely kind of thing in the beginning to get got used to not having alot of people around. It taught me that I actually like to be alone and I need to be (alot) and that I was missing Him and wasn't hearing His voice because of all of the other noise in my life. It taught me that I don't have to go to Him as a last resort. So many people pray as a last resort. I learned to go when it was embarrasing, humiliating, shameful, sad and all of the really hard times to go. I learned to go. I would go and I still go and I face Him on that mighty throne of grace that He sits on and I go boldly. He loves me. He loves you. I'm learning that I don't have to be afraid of Him, (its the rest that's scary).

I recently went to Him during something really really hard and the saddest thing is that part of it was His will for my life but the rest...I just made hard because I thought that it had to be, that it should be. I thought there is no way to go through something like this and it be easy so I made it hard and I made some messes just for good measure. I realize now that's not what He wanted for me or how He wanted me to go about things, but He knew I would.
He is currently helping me clean up and not even shaking His head.

My prayer in the end was, "tell me what You want me to know Lord, talk to me through this/about this, what do You Father God, have to say and He said to me, " I still have a plan for you, the same plan that I already told you about a long time ago. I still love you, I forgive you, you are still the one that I have called to do what I need done" Isaiah 6. He gave me Isaiah six and a song. Here's the song, cry if you want to, I did. Love. WEndy >;<.....

Sometimes it's embarrassing to talk to You to hold a conversation with the only one who sees right through this version of myself I try to hide behind I'll bury my face because my disgrace will leave me terrified and sometimes I'm so thankful for Your loyalty Your love regardless of the mistakes I make will spoil me my confidence in a sense, a gift You've given me and i'm satisfied to realize You're all I'll ever need You looked into my life and never stopped and You're thinking all my thoughts are so simple but so beautiful and You recite my words right back to me before I even speak You let me know, i am understood and sometimes I spend my time just trying to escape I work so hard, so desperately, in an attempt to create space cause I want distance from the utmost important thing I know I see Your love, then turn my back, and beg for You to go You looked into my life and never stopped and You're thinking all my thoughts are so simple but so beautiful and You recite my words right back to me before i even speak You let me know, I am understood You're the only one who understands completely You're the Only One who knows me yet still loves completely and sometimes the place I'm at is at a loss for words if I think of something worthy, I know that it's already Yours and through the times I've faded and You've outlined me again You've just patiently waited to bring me back and then You looked into my life and never stopped and You're thinking all my thoughts are so simple but so beautiful and You recite my words right back to me before i even speak You let me know, I am understood the noise has broken my defence let me embrace salvation Your voice has broken my defence let me embrace salvation Your voice has broken my defence let me embrace salvation Your voice has broken my defence let me embrace salvation Your voice has broken my defence let me embrace salvation Your voice has broken my defence let me embrace salvation Your voice has broken my defence let me embrace salvation let me embrace, let me embrace salvation....." I am understood, Reliant K

God is so good. His thoughts are not yours.